Thursday, September 1, 2011

Where the blog did the last month go?

I started the blog with every intention of writing once  a day.  Honestly,  this month has taken it's toll on me and I was afraid that if I started writing..I wouldn't be able to stop. It's absolutely beautiful outside-Polly and I are sitting on the front step.  Lots of changes going on...

Ethan is back to school-I still got a hug and a kiss and negotiated one pic outside the house (pretty good deal, I think).  Whenever we head back to school, I think of all the great school moments.  We have moved around quite a bit and I have always been so thankful for those teachers that really took my child in and loved him.  He was recently back in Detroit and was so excited to have run in to his "favorite" teacher- Barbara Sansone, 2nd grade - at the pool.  And he said " she recognized me!!!".  I had a very sad boy that year after rebounding to life in Detroit after LA and this very special teacher gave my child a smile every day that made him feel just as loved and confident at school as I did at home.  The best part was that he thought she wouldn't know him--1. my child has looked the same since birth-can't miss the jet black hair and dark brown eyes 2. she's the type that never would forget a student.  Just yesterday, he jumped in the car from soccer and said "Mom, I got to see Mr. Benjamin twice today" (his 5th grade teacher).  Special note here-I don't have a child that loves school or does his homework without me using the evil look and the voice--plain and simple, I have the child that loves people and recognizes good ones when he sees them. So very special thank you to all those great people that have loved my baby:)

I was just thinking that if the boy ever read that I still called him baby, well, I'd probably be in some trouble:)

I turned 35 a couple weeks ago.  At that point I realized that I was closer to 40 than 20-when did that happen? I have to admit-the only thing I miss about my 20's is facial fat.  One thing I have learned is that it disappears and laughlines, crowsfeet and the buttcrack between my eyes replaces it:)  Not complaining, because each one has a story and a lesson learned.  My birthday this year was probably the best ever. Not because of gifts or parties-although a clean and organized garage would have been terrific:)  No this year was different because this whole year has been different....I started a new life in 2011 (internally, outside still looks the same).  I made a pledge that I would recognize that if it doesn't kill me-I will get through it quickly and move on faster.  One day-I can share my experiences of this year that I have triumphed over, but for now and court orders (joke, kind of) I'm keeping it under wraps.  I have lost some friends over this new life-which has really put a dent in my heart. However, I will cherish the memories that I had with them and hope that this is all for the better.  Sometimes I think that the people that love you when you are down get a bit fearful when you're not.  Truth be told though-my mom has always been my best friend and this has just meant she has to take on more hyperventilating calls from me now:)  Every year for as long as I can remember, I have made a birthday list--this year, I got everything on it and trust me when I say...having a tv show wasn't on it:)  Happiness is within and if money or success could buy it...well, we'd all be toting around our new "happiness" rather than the latest Iphone:)

The front door just opened and someone sat down to share their chocolate donut with me:) and just peeked over at my screen and send "you need a space between best and friend". No nutritional breakfast keywords here. Hope you all have a safe and enjoyable Labor Day.  We are heading to LA-Ethan is excited to see his dad--if you're a single mom like me--try to have a decent relationship with dad--took me  a long time, but wow, what a difference it makes.  You don't have to love them-just respect them for your child's sake.  Vacations together took a bit to get used to it-but now it's kind of funny to think how many years we spent arguing-bottom line-we both just wanted to love the baby boy:)



4 comments:

  1. Nicole,
    I sincerely mean it when I wish you every bit of everything that is on your list.

    I also wanted to say that I completely understand how some people are not happy unless you aren't. I too have been there and had to move on from them and you know what, looking back, it was the very best decision I made. Unfortunately, we only share moments of our life with some people, only to look back and see that they weren't really friends after all. So in the end, it's all good.

    Come visit us any time in Indiana. We'd love to sit on the porch with some coffee and chat about old houses.

    ~Ann

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  2. Hi Nicole!
    First of all..I feel like I know you considering your show is all me and my fiance watch. We are obsessed. Your work is beautiful and truly inspiring. I have a passion, myself, to rescue old treasures.. (what is this world coming to??..) Just glad to see there is hope there are more people like us!!

    I also want to let you know that you as a mother is also inspiring. You have a beautiful son inside and out..you have truly made an impression on him. No matter how busy your life is..you always find a way to make room for him (which seems most important to you :) ) So nice to see your connection.

    I am not sure what happened..but knowing how strong of a women you are..YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS!! i went through a rough time myself with friends..i thought i had so many i lost count. but after i needed a friend the most the only ones that were there was my mom and best friend from grammar school. After the tears settled and I started to see clear...they were the only ones I truly needed anyway. However...I do feel for you during this time!!! Just know things will get better and you may need more than one doughnut :)! But continue to be yourself and good things will continue to come your way!

    Claudia

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  3. Hi Nicole.
    You should never doubt yourself or your ability to get thing done. Yeah, sometimes people suck but that has more to do with jealousy than anything else. You are living the dream that was supposed to happen and I love your show. I loved the mansion you did. OMG. What a difference from the start to the end.
    Robert

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  4. been watching you for years...love the shows...I know what you mean about blogging...I started blogging 10 years ago, been writing a column for our local paper for 16 years...the paper The Cheraw Chronicle published its last issue Dec31...can only hope it isn't something I said...good luck for the future. Glad I found your blog

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